Summer Has Ended...
Mood: Searching for the sun
Music: Do As Infinity - Summer Days
The raindrops have replaced the sunshine.
An indication that summer is over.
No more walking on the sidewalk while basking in the rays. No more running around town while baking in summer's dry heat. No more summer days.
I'm especially sad that this summer has ended. It's a summer of firsts for me. This is my first summer as a writer, a real one; my first summer as a man, working to earn his keep. Most importantly, this is my first summer as a full-fledged dreamer; an Eternal Dreamer (although, that phase is starting to see an end, too).
As many of you may have noticed, if you've been reading some of my recent entries, I'm not really in a good emotional state. And one of the few things that help me get by is my appreciation for the summer sun. Now that the summer is gone, I'll have to look to other things so that I don't drown so much into the dark cesspools of my head.
To make matters worse, my being a dreamer is starting to see an end. What is a dreamer if he can't even dream?
These past few weeks, everytime I go to sleep, I would only sleep a dreamless sleep. Whenever I would start to dream, something or someone in me would wake me up, then I will attempt to sleep again. This cycle will continue until I sleep a dreamless sleep, which is also the reason why I haven't been sleeping well these past nights.
I really don't have a resolution for any of the things happening right now. I just want to air-out whatever I need to air-out so I could go on with my life.
Music: Do As Infinity - Summer Days
The raindrops have replaced the sunshine.
An indication that summer is over.
No more walking on the sidewalk while basking in the rays. No more running around town while baking in summer's dry heat. No more summer days.
I'm especially sad that this summer has ended. It's a summer of firsts for me. This is my first summer as a writer, a real one; my first summer as a man, working to earn his keep. Most importantly, this is my first summer as a full-fledged dreamer; an Eternal Dreamer (although, that phase is starting to see an end, too).
As many of you may have noticed, if you've been reading some of my recent entries, I'm not really in a good emotional state. And one of the few things that help me get by is my appreciation for the summer sun. Now that the summer is gone, I'll have to look to other things so that I don't drown so much into the dark cesspools of my head.
To make matters worse, my being a dreamer is starting to see an end. What is a dreamer if he can't even dream?
These past few weeks, everytime I go to sleep, I would only sleep a dreamless sleep. Whenever I would start to dream, something or someone in me would wake me up, then I will attempt to sleep again. This cycle will continue until I sleep a dreamless sleep, which is also the reason why I haven't been sleeping well these past nights.
I really don't have a resolution for any of the things happening right now. I just want to air-out whatever I need to air-out so I could go on with my life.
posted by caitiff at 2:40 PM
2 Comments:
hey... sorry if I haven't been sticking around with you lately.
Apparently, there are some things I need to do that concerns my personal pride. I'm in a state where my ship is going through tidal waves and my only lighthouse is you know who.
Anyhoo, why must you put an end to something that you withheld with so much passion before. Being an eternal dreamer gave you (or all of us) a sense of pride and something to believe in. No matter how hard the storm or waves crash at us, we rebuild our boats to an even better state.
I dunno if it's still with personal issues about letting go and taking risks but I really thought you were stronger than that. I'm not even gonna question your current state or ask you what you want to do now.
Isn't one of the points of being an eternal dreamer is to take the helm as a foolish believer and go on an adventure not knowing what will come at us.
We keep sailing, my friend. Didn't you used to say that it's not about the destination but it's about the journey? That's life, bro. We don't need an answer right away coz a new adventure will pop up and it'll challenge us once more.
Still thinking of giving up the help? Who'll steer your ship now?
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